Never Understanding

I’m not afraid of you

I’m afraid of loving you

What kind of life could we have together

Considering your past

Considering mine

You’re not so much a part of me

I hurt when you’re not with me

I love you

I lust you

I want you

I need you

I’ve been fighting it constantly

in every way

Because I’m afraid you may not feel

the way I feel

You may not love me

Lust me

Want me

Need me

My chest is hollow

My heart is with you

You’re not with me

Spiritually you always will be

The night doesn’t put me to sleep

My dreams keep me awake

My tears blend in the shower

My crying cannot be heard

Every minute of every day

I’m thinking of you

Over flowing with emotions

Never understanding

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